; your story isn't over yet

What a beautiful it is to be able to stand tall and say, "I fell apart and i survived" - suicide is not an option. When suicidal thoughts comes gushing into your mind, you think you should end yourself and without having any other second thought on your mind, you go for it. You are ready and before allowing yourself to retire, you feel sorry about your deeds to your loved ones but never have a chance to prove them you're strong and are able to amend the ill-favored behaviors you've exhibited.

Stop giving yourself a tagline of being ugly, unfortunate, bluff, faulty, gross, pathetic and god knows what other forms of speech. Stop calling yourself a devil because you're self gratifying and every living entity in this big-big universe has a little devilish side in themselves. It's not just about the pain of almost dying (which is overwhelming) but the pain you'll cause your parents. When you’re depressed, you tend to underestimate how much your loved ones care for you, and those who kill themselves are unable to see how that decision affects other people. When you luckily survive your precious life, you'll get to see the pain you'll cause your mother and your father, and that is the most painful thing to witness. Said very often when someone loses their close living entity,

"A rocket has many little fuel tanks that he carries with him that brings him up into the sky but once he is in the sky he has to drop it all so that he continue on his journey.

You know whatever bad things in your life it's the same; it spurs you on, it helps you grow and then you just need to let them go...then you can move further." But you never know what pain you've caused to the ones who were there for you on your hard times, who grew up with you and most significantly, the ones who raised you up!

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Gathering up the knowledge about whatever i've understood by the term "depression and anxiety", these are the actual medical condition. Don’t be surprised that a ten year old knew how to hung himself, again depression is a medical condition. There are children who self-harm and yet it has been found out that they didn't know that what they are doing are self-harming. Just like how an infant got brain cancer, just like diabetes or tuberculosis, depression is also a medical condition. An illness that needs medical help. When one has physical pains s/he goes to the doctor so when one isn't feeling well mentally s/he shouldn't also be afraid to seek out help or have a CHECK UP. Going to a psychiatrist for a check up should also be included in people’s yearly check ups. Our brain is the most important! If it doesn't function well, none of the other stuffs are going to!

ERGO, I know it’s hard and the sky seems grey, but please reach out! <3

#SayNoToSuicide #ReachOut